Just trying to stay strong

Note to self !

2010-03-25T02:21:00.001-07:00

Someone told me that if LOVE is stupid , then i stupid you . I really meant it when i say it to u ! But i don't think u will know that how much i put my hearts and courage saying that to you.

damn gile emo now, just wanna be around the ds team !! <3>

Btw i'm joing 8 acara's for sports day !!! i was like WAT THE FUDGE !!! why did i join so much for. haiz.. Maybe i though that i was too strong adi :(

i just wanna be around him la now !! please !!! GOD , can u hear me ? I doubt that. if not u will make my wish come true long time ago ! :(

shunn <3>

Hesitations

2010-02-08T00:46:00.000-08:00

The scent of yours, the heat that i can still feel from the warm breaze, makes me thinks about you. Its complicated between us, want to be more then friends but, somehow hesitated...

Sparks that will never meet

2010-02-07T23:42:00.000-08:00

I know that we have some sort of feeling for each other, i do also have the same feeling for u , and its growing strong. But either of us are trying to make it clear. I kinda like that, but i realize that we are keeping a distance from each other, we flirt of each other very often but, still friends.

meii <3

Only Big Bang !!and the snail

2010-01-24T23:26:00.000-08:00

Today we celebrate hao's birthday at skul. :) Regina and alynna maked some cupcakes for him . It was soo good !!! Btw , we splashed him with water in different direction . that was so funny.

Later still need to go skul for the Bendahara practise, but can see him , so worth going though :P
. nothing much d.

love u guys :))) &u :)

<3

2010-01-14T22:42:00.000-08:00

Some pictures i took at Melaka at the temple . :)) so enjoy and leave a comment XP

Me, ivy and JACOB <3:)))

2010-01-14T22:16:00.000-08:00

Today, i-vy come my house to see my baby-Jacob. i'll let u guys have a sneek peak of him(:anyways, later i'm gonna walk him for the first time , just hope that he wont try to sniff and eat everything. OMG !!!. after that gonna cycle i-vy home .

As everyone know , i changed class to 3R. and todayjennifer and kar chun was having a glueand water-bag pack game . The whole class was looking at them running around the whole class. and amirul radzi lost his whole new glue . haiz... anyways it was funny. had a burst of laugh for the day :)

anyway

love u :))))

SS-ing

2009-11-19T18:49:00.000-08:00

Yesterday reg come to my house we took quite a lot of pics with hao through webcam which he don look to the camera !! hahah

wedding dress웨딩드레스-tae yang 태양

2009-11-18T18:58:00.000-08:00

This song is sung by Tae Yang (one of the member of big bang). Love the choreography . Enjoy:)

The Kyorean lyrics for this song

niga geuwa datugo 

ttaeron geu ttaeme ulgo 

himdeureo hal ttaemyeon nan huimangeul neukkigo

amudo moreuge mam a-a-apeugo

nijageun misomyeon tto damdamhaejigo

niga hoksina nae maeumeul alge doelkkabwa

arabeorimyeon uri meoreojige doelkkabwa

nan sumeul jug yeo

tto ipsureul kkaemureo

jebal geureul tteona naege ogil

Baby jebal geuui soneul japjima

 Cuz you should be my Lady 

oraen sigan gidaryeo on nal dorabwajwo  

noraega ullimyeon ije neoneun 

geuwa pyeongsaengeul hamkkehajyo 

oneuri oji ankireul 

geureoke na maeil bam gidohaenneunde 

nega ibeun wedingdeureseu

nae mameul mollajwotdeon

nega neomu miwoseo 

gakkeumeun nega bulhaenghagil nan baraesseo

imi nae nunmureun da ma ma mareugo

beoreutcheoreom honja neoege malhago

maeil bam geureoke buranhaetdeongeol bomyeon nan 

ireoke doelkkeoran geon aranneunjido molla

nan nuneul gama 

kkeuchi eomneun kkumeul kkwo 

jebal geureul tteona naege ogil

Baby jebal geuui soneul japjima 

Cuz you should be my Lady 

oraen sigan gidaryeo on nal dorabwajwo  

noraega ullimyeon ije neoneun 

geuwa pyeongsaengeul hamkkehajyo 

oneuri oji ankireul 

geureoke na maeil bam gidohaenneunde 

nega ibeun wedingdeureseu

budi geuwa haengbokhae 

neoreul ijeul su itge 

nae chorahaetdeon moseupdeureun da ijeojwo

birok handonganeun  no oh

na jugeul mankeum himi deulgetjiman no oh

neomu oraen siganeul chakgak soge

ollo babocheoreom saratjyo

ajikdo nae geunyeoneun nal bogo

sae hayake utgo inneunde

nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu 
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu

English Translation

I would argue

Then you would cry

As youre struggling, I would only get stronger

My heartaches behind these shadows

My face brightens up as I see your smile

I worry that you might notice my feelings

And I get scared that the gap between us would widen

I hold my breath

Then I bite my lips

Then I pray that she would leave his side.

Baby, please dont hold those hands

Cuz you should be my lady

Please look at me, Ive been waiting all this time.

Once the music ends, youll be with him forever

I prayed and prayed that this day wouldnt come

The wedding dress you once wore

You, who never understood my feelings

Because of that, I ended up despising you

Then I wished a misfortune upon you

But now, my eyes are dry

I try to talk to you but I realized that Im alone

Every night, I would look back and think

If I already knew the results

Then I close my eyes

Then I dream an endless dream

Then I pray she would leave his side.

Baby, please dont hold those hands

Cuz you should be my lady

Please look at me, Ive been waiting all this time

Once the music ends, youll be with him forever
I prayed and prayed that this day wouldnt come
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore

By all means, be happy with him

So I can move on

Please erase me out of your heart

Although I tried my best but, no oh~

Ive been living the lies for too long

Yet, she would look at me and smile.

Pieces

2009-11-18T18:51:00.000-08:00

i recently ducked out a 1000 pieces of puzzle, its a mickey and minnie puzzle but fully with lights for theback ground, its gonna take me months to get done with this puzzle. While i was doing the puzzle i realize when u find the piece that was meant to be together u feel lggod. i was thinking when i'm gonna find the piece in the heart??

LOVED

meii

2009-11-04T17:47:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, went to skul for no reason, ceramah the whole day. OMG i don't know how they go throught their life at skul yesterday. We went to KH bengkel to help teacher do the folio and files . So, we can ponteng the ceramah. Acctually aroung 4.1, teacher chase us out adi, but we just stay there and play card, we played Uno, black jack and more la.

But when time flies , its almost finish skul. my mood suddenly died. For , no reasons, i don know why, or maybe i'm trying to avoid it?

i wanted to cry, but i force myself not to, because i don have a shoulder or someone to wipe away my tears, so, i keep it to myself..

meii

Happy Birthday TOP opa

2009-11-04T17:43:00.000-08:00

Top, a.k.a Choi Seung Hyun's birthday was on 4th november. Isn't he hot !! saranghaeyo TOP opa

My dream dog just fly away

2009-10-18T23:26:00.000-07:00

We went to the temple last saturday, its at KL. So , we went to bai bai and stuff. Me and my sis wanted to have breakfast there, so, we walked around the Jonker street to hunt for food. On the way to Jonker Street, we passed through a pet shop, so i told my mom that lets go there later.

So, we ate and walked, wanted to buy a pais of aviagators, but there wasn't any nice ones. We walked in to the pet shop, and we saw a BEAGLE. It was soooo CUE, lying down there and staring at us. We saw a lot of dogs there , there was one only 6 weeks old, and she was playing with herself by running front and back, but she bang the glass, quite loud. Ouch!

The sales assistant took the beagle out, let me and my sis hug it. OMG! It was soo TINY, i can feel her heartbeat, and she was licking my hands and biting it. ARGGHH!!. So cute. But she's expensive, she is almost RM 2000 . haizzz...

loved
MEII

Choi Seung Hyun

2009-10-18T23:22:00.000-07:00

Watsup, its just gonna be a short one todaybecause i got a lot of things to read but lack of time to finish reading piles of books for exam. Recently, i'm currently in love with TOP(Choi Seung Hyun) . he is one of the lead rapper in Big Bang, He is so handsome and hot. Here's a peek of him .

LOVED

meii

XOXO

24- 7

2009-10-14T20:46:00.000-07:00

Listening to My heaven -Big Bang. Although i don really understand the lyrics coz its in Japanese, but, it something like " 24 i need you with me forever" something like that la
The voice in my heart is saying " 24 7 i need u with me , 24 7 i will miss and 24 7 i will wait for you!"

loved
meii
24-7

2009-10-11T05:48:00.000-07:00

i'm totally in love with eminem-Beautiful . i dunno why, maybe because the lyrics touches my heart. Btw, its sunday night. Sister sick again, she keeps on order me to do stuff for me, coz she SICK! wtv.

Lately, i've been hard to reach

i've been to long on

my own

this part touched my heart !! argh

Maybe u din realize but i've been waiting for you to give me that sight that will melt my heart, make me fill my mind and heart with your face.

I Don't Wanna Be

2009-10-06T00:15:00.001-07:00

I don't want to be anything other than what

I've been trying to be latelyAll I have to do is think of me and have peace of mind

I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do

Or who I'm supposed to beI don't want to be anything other than me

NOMINATIONS

2009-10-05T23:57:00.001-07:00

Its a boring afternoon, alone at home, no junk food to eat. haizzz!!bluek. So, i was doing my piano homework, all of the sudden, i wanted to take opions from friends about names for my maybe coming puppy, a beagle .

Names that we can think about:(please give some opion for some cute and stuning names)

patrik(sis LOVES this name)

elmo

sky

prince

fluffy

storm

spike

candle

carlisle(sis love this too)

vampire

food

peach

furry

fatty

nose

sponge

spotty

pokea

bobo

bubbly

and more to go...

so, please give me some decisions

thx

LOVED

meii

Daily Life.

2009-10-05T18:00:00.000-07:00

Today is a early morning for me. Woke up at 7 . thinking that was i forgived? maybe not. So , i decided to study, since exam is around the corner. I was somehow planning my schedule for revisioning. I started with geo first, since its my most hateful subject, should take more time to read although its on the last day on exam.

I had a weird dream, its like everyone betrayed me and just doesn't care about me anymore. Its just weird to have that type of dream, just scared that this might happen to me some day.

update more later.

LOVED

meii

mood swing again, so lets have a colour splash

2009-10-05T08:11:00.000-07:00

My kai yerh!! <3

2009-10-05T08:03:00.000-07:00

Wanted to study geografi tonight , but nth is going in to my damn big fat brain!!
So , go chat with my new kai yehh Tan Chee Yuan
We were argueing to call me kai meii or kai shun . he say should call kai shun ( coz in chinese shun means grand children )
[c=13][c=12]z[/c] Y[/c] says:
kai shun lo coz im ur kai yeh ma
xO
meii - cloudy inside says:
hahaha
lol...
sounds so weird??
kai shun
but cnt call kai mei
haiz..
anything la
[c=13][c=12]z[/c] Y[/c] says:
shun means granddaughter u know
not ur name xD
meii - cloudy inside says:
hahah
still related to my name kan yeh yeh
[c=13][c=12]z[/c] Y[/c] says:
*cough
yehyeh old d..if i not here d..
muz take care urself ar
meii - cloudy inside says:
drink water argh
[c=13][c=12]z[/c] Y[/c] says:
cough*
meii - cloudy inside says:
don go 1st!!!
hahaha
[c=13][c=12]z[/c] Y[/c] says:
choi ~.~
meii - cloudy inside says:
i will de* cryin*
hahaha
[c=13][c=12]z[/c] Y[/c] says:
good act x)
future actress la
meii - cloudy inside says:
hahah
thank you
thank you!!!
hahaha
my speech in future : firstly i need to thanks to my kai yehh tan z yuan
[c=13][c=12]z[/c] Y[/c] says:
invite me up to de stage la
wat la u
x(
meii - cloudy inside says:
hahha
think too much la we!!

2009-10-05T07:31:00.000-07:00

The weather inside my heart in cloudy. Need some sun to make it go away or a big rain to make it worse?? Shared my feeling to Z Yuan( thx for that ), he kinda makes me feels better(in a friendship wa la ) . I'm current having some problem with my friend. Wish that i will be forgived.

2009-10-05T00:16:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i really regret for wat i do or even say. So , i'm here to ask for forgiveness. I wish that i will be forgived, for asking stuff that you don wanna tell. I'm sorry..

today , don need to go skul, maybe tomorow also not going . Just wanna stay at home, maybe study or wat la. Good luck to those form 3's . Wish you guys will pass yr exam's with flying colours.

2009-10-05T00:06:00.000-07:00

Some colour Splash to change a mood

2009-10-04T20:22:00.000-07:00

My mom says that maybe we can have a doggie, so i search the net the whole day to find a doggie that i want. I wanted a small dog but my sis wants a big dog. FInally , when i decided to give up , i found the puppy . a beagle dog. Its a loyal and hunting dog . Maybe he can be fill the emptiness in my heart. Here's a pic of my dream dog.

The feeling inside

2009-10-04T20:18:00.000-07:00

I don't know whats happening to my heart, but lately i feel alone for no reasons. Although u guys might be there for me, but its different. I want someone that that will be there for me .But i sounds impossible to happen to me.

Doggies

2009-10-01T19:52:00.000-07:00

Kim Bum ♥

2009-10-01T19:41:00.000-07:00

Justin Bieber

2009-10-01T19:36:00.000-07:00

2009-10-01T19:21:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, at skul, nothng much happen but there was a form one kid damn F*** de . slimply blame people for no reason . crazy de!
Then later acctually wan go i-vy hse play with jojo (i-vy's new doggie) but she got leo meeting. Then we go chit chat at canteen with hao they all lo..
haiz..
nth much

LOVED
meii

Some pics from auntie's wedding

2009-09-24T23:38:00.000-07:00

2009-09-24T23:34:00.000-07:00

Hi...this holiday is damn suckish... me and my sis only at home and tuiton. home tuiton.. haiz.. so , we kinda decided wanna do something different. but we just can't find anything. We found a korean facial mask in mom's toilet, but there was only 1, me and my sis 1 2 jus for it. But i was winning at first, BUT she won , so he had the mask. erghhh!!
btw , my cousin in back at kajang d. dunno when we're gonna go back??
miss u guys

LOVED

meii

Birthdays again!!`

2009-09-22T21:21:00.000-07:00

yesterday was yi jean and i-vy's b'day. today is yi jeans brothers b'day DANNY SAM . my tang keke.. hahah he's having exam later pray to god he will pass.. <3
mwrahxx

2009-09-21T22:45:00.000-07:00

Today is I-vy and yi jeans birthday. One is my best friend and another is my cousin . LOVE them forever. mwrahxxx

꽃보다 남자

2009-09-17T21:31:00.000-07:00

This is the korean drama that i am watching now. its very touching and funny drama.

people i LOVE

2009-09-17T21:26:00.000-07:00

lee min ho saranghaeyo!!♥

CHACE CRAWFORD

2009-09-17T21:15:00.001-07:00

Isn't he just too hot !

2009-09-17T21:07:00.000-07:00

Flowers bloom for a reason, u just have to find it.

something that makes me happy

2009-09-17T21:00:00.000-07:00

i like this pic , i dunno why?!

2009-09-17T20:48:00.000-07:00

i'm here again!!
so, yesterday was the last day of school before hari raya. We go to school for nothing also , we sat at the foyer c for nearly 2 hours, my ass and legs are numb d, thanks to rajinder! In class , me, aly, isaac and ben played some weird games, like rating guy or girls and even eating the kurma from ben's hamper. And we even hid our stuff in the hamper coz they say got spot check (but don have larh) then we start to help isaac and daniel to put some nail polish, they look sooooo GAY!!! But cute.

When i reach home, reg called me and

R: Mei, you wanna go bazaar anot? My sister can fetch. Cepat, I'm at your row now!
M: HAR?! But I'm not wearing my baju!
R: hahahaahahaha. Cepat go change! I'm in front of your house now.
M: okok. wait arh. I go change.

so when i went in the car, reg's sister's friend was in the car. so we went to the bazaar, and reg saw one of her 'friend" called yi han or something. and that guys was like ' do i know u' look.
anyways, we say i-vy connie brenda, xi wei, nick and shirleen. and we even say chia yuen , ameilia and her friend. We both shouted her name so loudly , i think she famous already!!

Reg and connie bought some weird pink drink 'sirap selasih?' taste kinda weird ut quite nice larh.
And reg also bought 6 satays. so when the clouds come, we know it was gonna rain, we wanted to get back to the car, but rachel's friend wanted to buy murtabak. so we turned and suddenly. IT RAINED. we runned from the top of the bazaar to the end and reach the car. and i think reg's satay wet adi.

hahah

first day of holi today. HAPI RAYA to all malays and hapi holi to all!!!

XOXO

loved meii

2009-08-22T20:40:00.000-07:00

Boo000!! i'm back.
The BBQ party was sucsessfull. we ate, ate annd ATE!We ate a lot stuff until 10.30pm. OMG i can still feel the food in my stomach. Around 9.30 , my auntie bring out the wines and beers, so , me and my sis tried quite a lot types of beer example: India's beer (7.5% alcohol), Thailand beer (5.3% alchohol) and Heineken. By the way, red wine tastes HORIBBLE. But, thats what i think about it larhh.
Around 10 , my auntie recieves a phone call from my another aunt that she also want some BBQ , but she's at the hostel at UM.So, my uncle's start BBQing again. they finished everything, and they even brought beer for her to the hostel. lol. i don't think its ok to bring beer to the hostel , right??

nth to say d
LOVED
XOXO

If that's what you think

2009-08-21T06:31:00.000-07:00

Reply from what i saw from i-vy's blog
Actually we in class she also can be with us de, but she don't want, we invited her a lot of time but she don't want.And, everytime i'm with you i emo coz i think a lot, because i am thinking will u don't like me hugging you or even holding your hand. i really don't want to lose you and sanddy as my best friends . please!

LOVED

2009-08-21T06:14:00.000-07:00

Since Sandy's birthday is coming, we don't have a lot of budget so we just buy a simple birthday card. We all gonna sign it with hugs and kisses (XOXO).

LOVED

2009-08-21T06:08:00.000-07:00

So, its the first night of my holiday and i had some advice from Zyuan. He told me some thing: that having a friends is some type of 'yuan fen', u have to appreciate every friend you have. If not , there is no more turn back in your life anymore.
And i decided that friends are really important, and i don't want to lose any friends.
I am so sorry for things that i did to her or maybe even hurted her, but i wish that i can be forgived and be back friends that care and love each other

loved

2009-08-21T00:11:00.000-07:00

I-vy,

Don't get angry kae, that feeling is looong time ago . Doesn't exist anymore!!

LOVE

2009-08-21T00:06:00.001-07:00

That feeling is gone in my heart now. i used to be selfish about sharing friends with other eople, but you just need some time to get used to it.
I love my friends, and i will forever love them, i-vy, sandy, and THE FREAKS!

LOVED

2009-08-21T00:05:00.000-07:00

wooh!! its holiday already. But still gonna stay at home , so , NO DIFFERENCE. Now i'm waiting for the BBQ party tomorrow.MUAHAHAH!!!

2009-08-19T19:16:00.000-07:00

new bog

2009-08-19T18:34:00.001-07:00

hey , check out our new bog (aly , ryn j.yii and me).
We decided to make a blog about us.so just check it out...
www.sowhat-guys.blogspot.com

LOVE

2009-08-19T18:28:00.000-07:00

Hey, its been a long time since my last update.But i decided to come back because i had to express my feelings.
there is a slight difference in my life, that is sandy as interrupted my life.It used to be me n i-vy only but she had a fight with jia yi months ago, so they din get back close anymore.So she come for me.starting i wasn't really happy ab0out it, but i tried to compromise, by sharing my best friends with her. But, she takes i-vy everytime when i needed her.

But in class i had 3 friends that are close.Everytime at class , we (aly, ryn j,yii and ME) will be laughing and doing crazy stuff. At least that can replace the pain in my heart.

2009-06-15T20:41:00.000-07:00

i've been thinking a lot lately
i think about lots of stuff that make me go crazy
but,
i try to convince my self that everything is fine..
is it??

2009-03-01T19:39:00.000-08:00

下雨天，突然好想你
很想抱抱你，可是却没有勇气
很想告诉你，我好想你
很想对你说，我其实很爱你

2009-03-01T19:37:00.000-08:00

boo0o0o0...
just come back from melacca yesterday night..
we went to my aunt's wedding[she soo pretty]
n..
we went around to eat ,eat n EAT...
btw..
its march already..
means ..EXAM IS COMINGGG....
OMG...
kae..
that all nth much to say
kyeann

2009-02-25T18:08:00.000-08:00

SOO....
benjaminho's burtday cuming adi..
his my mamieeeee....
soo..
we're gonna buy him sumthin..
TEE HEE...
shhhh.. its a suprise.. dun tell him kae..???

2009-02-25T18:05:00.000-08:00

Peaka boooo000000....
...
i'm lifeless la...
coz my friends dont care bout me
CARE..
this word doent's exist in my life..
i dont own it...
LOVED...
it doen's belong to me..
soo..
i will never know the feeling being lover or cared...

I Just Wanna ...

2009-02-25T18:02:00.000-08:00

I just wanna ...
always be with you
hug you
tell you that i LOVE you
know that you will care & LOVE me..
BUT,
i know that just won't happen...

kyeann [lovez]

2009-02-19T17:10:00.000-08:00

Very long dint update my blog adi....
Soo....
Today is REGINA's BIRHTDAY....[wooo-hooo]
i bought a present for her..[Hope that she will like it]
And... yesterday was my dad's birthday.. we actually wanted to make a suprised party.. but it dint work out.. coz my dad know all the planning already... [don know how he knows]

thats all la..
nothing much to say ..

LOVE

Daddy's Birthday

2009-02-19T17:04:00.000-08:00

我与他的故事

2009-02-13T23:03:00.000-08:00

也许，
我和你就像天上的星星，
一颗位于南方，一个位于北方，
永远都没有相遇，相爱和相恋的一天；
也许，
我只是平凡的我，
而你却像颗闪的星星，
让我没有办法把耀眼的你给占为己有；
也许，
我只是一个丑 Y头；
也许，
你就像王子般地完美，我却只是个不完美的灰姑娘，
奇迹不会降落，王子自会等待适合自己的公主，根本不会理会和爱上灰姑娘；
毕竟，这一切只属于童话世界，从来不曾出现与现实生活中，故事的男主角一定是你，但女主角却不会是我，我永远都自是个小小的配角，毫不起眼，不会有人想多看一眼；
也许，
你的女主角会一直不停地改变，但无论如何都不会轮到我，
你冷酷的表情，把我的心无数次的冷冻了，
但又好几回因为你的微笑而融化了，
喜欢你的笑容，却无法正视你的双眼；
当我无意间发现你注视着我的方向时，在那和你四目交接的那一瞬间，我的心停顿了，但脑海却又迅速地浮现那些他不是在看你，你想太多了，根本不可能，你凭什么 ?
或许，我怕希望太大，失望越大
或许，我怕事情不会像我想像那样；
或许我怕会陷的太深，到时候就更无法自拔了
或许，我只是想对你说我爱你 ....

From kyeann[lovez]

2009-02-13T22:53:00.000-08:00

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!!

today is valentines but its also the larian fourian for our skul[marathon run]. i won the 8th place in my class3[form 1 and form2] damn happy .Btw BENDAHARA rocks......

Erm, its also my cousin's birthday today, so gonna celebrate with him today.

KYEANN[lovez]

REGRETTING

2009-02-11T18:30:00.000-08:00

I feel really regret now,
On the day we fought,
I had to say that word.
Because of my pride,
I thought you will come back
I thought you will find me
I thought u treated you nicely,
So i take it easily,
Now i know i became tired,
Because of my stubbornness,
'Leys Break Up'.
No, thats not true,
You still don't understand me?
I want you back
Please accept my apology,
I just want you

From Gemala[ lovez]

All That Matter Was Him

2009-02-11T18:05:00.000-08:00

I normally observe him from a distance, I never really dare to take that one step-the one that would take me a litter deeper into knowing him. When he was antwhere near me,my heart would bear furiously, my friends around me-would dissolve.

All That Matter Was Him

If he was talking to me, i would play it cool, act like nothing about himwas affecting me. I would laught at his jokes-they were genuinely funny. But the laughter, him making me laught takes tones of weight off my shoulder.THe worries of the world? What's that?

Froma distance, i watch him walking with his classmate-one of my best friends,his fellow BOD member.They're laughing together. I feel a slight twinge of jelousy.I wish i could walk around with him without making myself act like an idiot.

He and i are friends, but i have a fondness for him that is beyond a converational friendship. I don't think anyone knows that i like him, or even notice it. I just need to keep my head low-don't be too obvios. My friends can be quite oblivios. I hope that they stay that way.

But of course, i was very wrong.

It happend in class, my classmate made an offhand remark, a guess from a sort of game. Before i knew it, blood rushed to my face.I had given myself away.

I was actually squite surprised to hear that he also liked me! I neven expected that. He found out about me- what about the others? How would they react? Maybe they still don't know.

From Gemala edisi ke-17 subang utama[lovez]

When I Feel In LOVE

2009-02-11T17:53:00.000-08:00

When i feel in love with you
That very day, i knew it was true
The LOVE i found in you
I knew i never wanted to lose

You mean dar more than any words could say,
I wish i knew exactly why i feel this way,
My LOVE for you grows stronger each day
I hate the times when you are away
When we talk, i hate to say'Goodbye'

I would do anything for you to show you,
My LOVE for you is true,
I feel luck to have someone like you,
My LOVE for you will never die,
This i know is true.
Because my place in life is right beside you.

From:Gemala edisi ke 17 Subang Utama[lovez]

Guardian Angel

2009-02-11T17:38:00.000-08:00

A Guardian Angel
Flew down from above
To teach me a lesson
About the powers of LOVE

She takes a hold of my hand
And whispers to me
'there are so many things
i wish you to understand

About the powers of LOVE
And all it can do
To someone who needs
To share it with you

A pat on the back
A kind smile on your face
Can make someone's life
A mich brighter place

It doesn't take much
To show someone you care
To give them the LOVE
God gave you to share

So,please keep in mind
All the powers you possess
To grace someone's life
When they're in distress

You've been put on this earth
To bestow the powers of LOVE"
And with those final words
She disappeared up above.

From Gemala edisi ke-17 subang utama[lovez]

2009-02-11T17:31:00.000-08:00

不要怀疑自己是否值得
坦然的接受一切
我留在你身边
是因为你值得别人对你好

From kyeann[lovez]

2009-02-09T01:00:00.000-08:00

❤❤❤也許愛情是一部憂傷の童話❤❤❤

♂放棄一個很愛你の人並不痛苦♀

♂放棄一個你很愛の人那才痛苦♀

♂愛上一個不愛你の人那是更痛苦♀ ♀逃避不一定躲得過♂

♂面對不一定最難過♀

♀孤單不一定不快樂♂♂得到不一定能長久♀

♀失去不一定不再擁有♂

★愛是一種是思念★

ღ無論何時何地當看不到她/她の時候會想念她/他ღ

★愛也會是一種擔心★

ღ當他/她出事の時候你會比誰都著急ღ

★愛是一種包容★

ღ你會包容她/他所有の缺點在你眼裡他/她永遠是最完美のღ

★愛更是一種回憶★

ღ當你想起她/她做出可愛浪漫の事時會不知覺の傻笑ღ

★覺得好甜蜜好甜蜜★

ღ你體會到了嗎如果沒有就放棄重新開始吧祝福你ღ

From hotmail[lovez]

2009-02-09T00:58:00.000-08:00

爱一人

如果你不爱一个人,
请放手.
好让别人有机会爱她.
如果你爱的人放弃了你,
请放开自己,
好让自己有机会爱别人.
有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的,
有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的.
人生中有许多种 .
但别让自己为一种伤害.
有些缘分是注定要失去的,
有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的,
爱一个人不一定要拥有,
但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她.
男人哭了是因为他真的爱了.
女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了.

如果真诚是一种伤害,
我选择谎言;
如果谎言一种伤害,
我选择沉默;
如果沉默是一种伤害,
我选择离开.

如果失去是苦，
你怕不怕付出 ,
如果迷乱是苦，
你会不会选择结束,
如果追求是苦，
你会不会选择执迷不悟 ,
如果分离是苦，
你要向谁倾诉,
好多事情都是后来才看清楚,
好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦!!!!

From hotmail [lovez]

2009-02-07T23:09:00.000-08:00

Fear, Filial, Spirit
Joy,Hurt, Hardship,Life,With,Fear,Filial acts,And Spirits,Completing life

What we have is , Enough...

2009-02-07T22:44:00.000-08:00

Continue where i stopped last night.
i said that it was very HOT but i still wear kuan ming's jacket [damn nice]. Jason put fire crackers n stuff. Ming wei, Llyan and Rui wen also went but just for a while.i manage to take a few pics with them .
Thats all , lovez [kyeann]

2009-02-07T22:42:00.000-08:00

2009-02-07T22:37:00.001-08:00

2009-02-07T22:34:00.000-08:00

me n kuan ming

2009-02-07T22:25:00.000-08:00

me, ming n lyan

me wearing kuan ming's jaket[damn nice]

me n sandy

2009-02-07T06:57:00.000-08:00

Just come bak from dick ming's hse. Damn lot ppl ad damn HOT .We all gamble and take pics n more gamble n more take pics.ahah

Caryn and wan ching wear damn nice n hot,xiao hui n jia yi wear damn cute , onli me wear the most normal...and vincent wear like just come back from taekwondo lessons [true]

lovez[kyeann]

2009-02-07T01:20:00.000-08:00

All

cousins together [20 of them]

2009-02-07T01:14:00.000-08:00

wooh....gonna post my pics adi....

hehhehe

this pic is taken when lining up to take angpau from grandma

2009-02-06T22:51:00.000-08:00

Today, we went for volleyball practise at MPSJ. But when we went there, we realize that the senoirs where there training. So we had to use the netball court.but after playing for half an hour, me ,amelia, hao,han ,chern yuan and a new form 1 guy[dunno the name] went running at the court.
We run about 5-7 rounds ba?After running for 4 round , me han ,chern yuan n hao all lembik adi, so we all were walking and listening to songs[ben's phone]. We were all hungry ,but i brought choc milk and chern yuan bring apple[damn big].

Vhern yuan and hao share the apple.After eating finish the big apple, han recieved a massage that today is chee kai voon's b'day.So, we wanted to splash him but they dint,so we decided to go for Mc.d .But my mom wont let me go[ not fair]. They all waited with me while i was waiting for my parents.They were opposite the road and the shouted.'Bye Bye Mei Shun' It was so embrassing, but very touching[reali]. hahha

Thats all for today[lovez]

2009-02-04T18:09:00.000-08:00

Language
need to learn
LOVE
need to learn how to love and be loved
Cared
also need to know hoe to care and be cared
Protected
just need to know how to be protected

From KYEANN [lovez]

2009-02-04T18:00:00.000-08:00

What My Heart Tells Me
Is that there is no one else on earth
Who can make me fee the way you do
From the first day that we met
You made me forget all my tears
And you have shown me that God really does
Have one special heart for each of us to find
You are the ne God has guided me to
What My Heart Tells Me
Is that i can never love anymore
As much as i love and care for you
And how my feelings grow stronger each day
I can't imagine not being able to hold you
I want to share my life with you for the reest of forever
You make me the person I have always hoped to be
What My Heart Tells Me
Is that God proveided me with your Loving heart
And i will do everything within my power
To provide the best for you each and everyday
Everytime i see you walk into a room
My heart will never fails to beat faster and stronger
This is how i know you are the one for me
For the rest of the time the Lord gives me
I give you my heart and for you i will do
What My Heart Tells Me

From HAN[lovez]

2009-02-04T17:58:00.000-08:00

沉默，
代表悲伤正在进行中

From KYEANN[lovez]

2009-02-04T17:55:00.000-08:00

Where were you,
When ,
i needed you
i wanted you
i miss you now
i realized that i LOVE you
my angel don't wanna protect me anymore
Where were you..??

From KYEANN [lovez]

2009-02-04T17:53:00.001-08:00

Can somebody just take me away
So that i will never see you again
Because seeing you
Will make me remember how much
i LOVED you
But the love that i give is not taken or given back

From KYEANN[lovez]

2009-02-04T17:45:00.000-08:00

思念，从你离开后，
你知不知道 COLOUR
思念的颜色，很纯很纯
你知不知道 FORM
思念的形状，很绵很绵
你知不知道 TASTE
思念的味道，很凉很凉
你知不知道 FEEL
思念的感觉，很长很长

From 天使23号街[lovez]

2009-02-04T17:30:00.001-08:00

Believe,
In the corner of Angel Street
Paradise of dreams forever

2009-02-04T17:20:00.000-08:00

You have to let yourself,
and you past
In order to go to the future
I will always LOVE you
No matter what

From JENN[lovez]

2009-02-04T17:17:00.000-08:00

I leave not because i HATE you
I leave because i LOVE you

From JENN

2009-02-04T17:13:00.000-08:00

No matter how sweet
Can the candy be
Without you ,
The sweetness will just
Be more bitter than
Losing you in my life

From JENN[lovez]

2009-02-04T17:08:00.000-08:00

Yesterday morning,was 1st da training for taekwondo. Me ,Jia yi,Benjamin and Hao like siao adi.. keep on laugh and play while training .Me n Benjamin keep on change the uniform.then kena
scold by coach.Hehhe..
lovezz

2009-02-02T20:12:00.000-08:00

Yesterday night at my house ,had a prayers, nearly 45 ppl were at my house..every place were packed. [omg]. Me n my cousin took ictures while we were preparing for the prayers.

My uncle bought the Kong Ming Teng, so we wrote our wishes on it...and it flew soo high
after the ceremony, it was nearly 12.30 adi so me n rr ust clean up the house n stuff. when were done its 1.30 adi. and the worst is STILL NEED TO GO TO SCHOOL LATER...

2009-02-01T18:09:00.000-08:00

i am new in blogging.. i made this blog is just to express my feeling .

the new year just finish . so skul is gonna start again.[thats bad]

Just trying to stay strong

Note to self !

Hesitations

Sparks that will never meet

Only Big Bang !!and the snail

Me, ivy and JACOB <3:)))

SS-ing

wedding dress웨딩드레스-tae yang 태양

Pieces

Happy Birthday TOP opa

My dream dog just fly away

Choi Seung Hyun

24- 7

I Don't Wanna Be

NOMINATIONS

Daily Life.

The feeling inside

Doggies

Kim Bum ♥

Justin Bieber

Some pics from auntie's wedding

Birthdays again!!`

꽃보다 남자

people i LOVE

CHACE CRAWFORD

something that makes me happy

If that's what you think

new bog

I Just Wanna ...

Daddy's Birthday

我 与 他 的 故 事

REGRETTING

All That Matter Was Him

When I Feel In LOVE

Guardian Angel

我与他的故事